December 2009
new years resolutions
* get a decent boyfriend
* fall in love with said decent boyfriend
* try not to smoke weed, hence TRY
* not give a flying shit about what people think
* be even more confident
* make better memories
no lies and bullshit this coming year. just love.
so I just realized that last year on new years, on this same exact day, I ate at Fridays before going to ninas house. Which is an odd coincidence because I just ate there anddd it’s new years. Except it was a bit different because instead of going with both my parents I only went with one. And last year at this time I was waiting for your stupid fucking call, but of course you never called...
I'm really quite tired but I don't want to go to...
the wonderful adventures of sammi
TODAY, i walked about an hour and half down the road from my house to a hindi mart in some really redneck area with lots of trees and random barking dogs because me and moriah had a sudden craving for salsa. chips and salsa. so we walk down there and we meet some random guy with really cool tattoos. and them some redneck started threatening at us for dancing in the road, and then we went to some...
I need friends on here :/
adventures
this friday;
i plan to camp out in our playground. that should be fun (: i’ve always wanted to do that. and count the stars. i need to bring lots a cozy blankets. and oatmeal cookies. maybe my guitar too. hmmmm yes :)
next friday;
the show. haha. that will be quite amusing.
i lost my hello kitty cell phone charm whilst climbing under a fence today. damn. that fence was worth it though. even though the door was open and we didn’t notice until we were inside. opps :)
i wish i can document everything that ever happens to me.
and not have to worry about carrying around memories.
that would be easier, i think.
no water
in my whole damn neighborhood.
dammit.
i live in like the fucking woods and swamps.
blah. at least it was a beautiful day today.
i’ve realized that i would really miss the living in this town.
new york seems… i don’t know. something is missing there.
ah well. i feel like i smell :[
i. need. to. take. a. shower.
and i fucking can’t!
so i’m on tumblr.
ha....
sometimes I wish I was one of those people who hurt other people but never got hurt themselves. like they hurt everyone around them, intentional or not, but they never get hurt. there are the people like myself, who get hurt, and the people who cause hurt. even if that meant having half my towns population hate my guts; sometimes I wish I was like that. because those type’s of people always...
looking at you was like seeing red in a sea of...
new york tomorrow. i'll finally be out of this...
In all honesty, all I want out of this life is to...
Even if you can't find me, you know I'll always be...
I have just discerned that facebook is a way to make people’s lives feel like shit. The only reason for it’s existence is for you to let people know how much you love your life whilst there’s is shit. Unless it’s the other way around but people don’t really care about that. Because you know, you have to read everyone’s status, just because. Every time I go on...
iwanttofuckingtearyouapart
it's like;
i’m happy and optimistic one second,
then the second i see his name again,
my heart quivers at a stand still for about ten seconds and i can’t look away.
then it just drops. boom. explodes. erupts. into this pit that i succumb to each time.
and now i can’t stop thinking, everything is impalpable again.
i wish her stupid credulous heart could hurt as much as i have.
how...
i feel like i’m nothing.
i feel like i am of no importance.
nothing interesting about me,
nothing of me i can even explain.
i am so afraid.
that there will never be anyone else.
that i will never feel the same again.
i only have so much to give.
i am sorry if i make a big pother of this.
and yes, i know i do. but
it never ends.
no matter how many other guys give their hearts away...